Don't Ignore the Open Door

So it has been some time since I have posted on here. I am unsure why, perhaps it was impatience; that I looked for fame and fortune elsewhere. Perhaps it was money, an abandonment of anything that wasn't pushing me forward financially. In any case, three years is a long time to allow so many profound moments to sink to the bottom of my memories. I have always had something to say, at times you couldn't shut me up, but for whatever reason for a time I thought my words were just for me. The truth will always find the surface in us, whether through invitation or not.

I have begun to go for regular walks, breaking my long-time habit of being an absolute hermit. I don't walk far, I have this spot under a tree on a large field of grass that I like to sit, pray and contemplate as us melancholic types tend to do. During that time, my mind drifts from one thought to another, asking questions, probing for solutions or simply sitting in the accompanying emotions and sifting through those.
I found myself this particular time to be focusing on all the areas of my life that seemed to be stagnant and not progressing. After allowing my emotions to sweep around me and the inevitable existential questions begin to poke at my reality, I had a moment of clarity. I was ignoring where my life was going well in order to complain about what wasn't going the way I wanted.
This may seem like common wisdom, but I was amazed out how much good I was ignoring simply so I could sulk about things that most of the time weren't an issue. Creatively, I have never felt more alive, and here I was having a pity-dinner for one because I had a fleeting feeling of loneliness.

As I realised this I had an image in my mind's eye of me standing in front of a row of doors. They were all closed, except for one, wide open and inviting with a warm glowing light. There was Jesus, pointing towards it with a big grin on His face. But I, I was yelling like a madman at all these closed doors. In thinking of this I chuckled aloud.

Perspective is everything. Half empty, half full, it can be hard for a thirsty man to decide, but we have to focus on the available, for on that we can act. Focus on the open door, you may not be able to decide which door opens, but you have the means to bring out the best of what is in front of you.

DON'T IGNORE THE OPEN DOOR, MAKE IT YOUR FOCUS.

God bless you.