Dichotomy

I'm a shipwreck barely seaworthy
Sailing into the deep and carried by the wind
With a crew of insecurities
And a bipolar captain
I am a broken vessel saved only by my momentum
The wind never ends unless I go against Him
If I anchor I may sink
But only self-pity can sink this ship
I have no port of call
I search for a waterfall falling upward
So I may slip into its stream
And find my dreams in His paradise

I'm a broken mirror
Trying desperately to reflect
The image that I see
And the light that gives me rest
Through these many cracks you'll see the black that fills my chest
You might call me cursed
I'd call it blessed
I fight through rooted word
Fighting demons of my past
Crying for the one
Who can help me fix this glass

I'm a soft stuffed toy
Coming apart at the seems
I'm undone, unhindered
And spilling out all my dreams
Like my insides flowing out of my wide open chest
I see some parts I love and some I detest
You'll look upon me both disturbed and in awe
Either way my friend
You'll look at me different than before

This is not a hopeless life
Nor a final cry
Through all hell I've fought
And in all ways I've died
And I know You'll mend me
You'll fill all my needs
I love how You've made me
But I hate how I bleed