What is it I Lack?

I've always found it interesting how when things used to turn (in my perspective) to crap, I used to go straight to despair. I always prayed and wondered in those moments, 'what is it I lack?'

The answer? Nothing. I lacked nothing.

'But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.'
- James 1:4

The problem was in those moments when I felt abandoned and alone I did not believe that God
had it under his control. Don't misunderstand me, I don't regret those moments. I was young, still
learning patience, and learning to trust God with not just the small things but the things that caused me so much grief that I did not believe God could do anything with them. At that particular time I believed that this was simply the way it was. That I was to deal with these addictions, doubts and disappointments the rest of my life because this was the hand I was dealt. This I now see, was a ploy; a lie by the enemy to drive a wedge into my relationship with God.

But the enemy failed.

God never left me, nor would he. He continued to speak love and grace into my life until I finally understood the truth. God has given me all I need , I simply needed to believe and trust that his provision and grace is in every area of my life.

When I was young I expected to be changed in an instant, but time does not work that way. Time rewards patience, and God rewards faith. When we have patience, when we practice endurance and constantly come back to our relationship with God as the centre of our lives we are given the ultimate power. Freedom.

Freedom from any burden, from any need. An empowering, fierce freedom that pushes us beyond our human inability and into the unknown of God's purpose for our lives.

So we find ourselves, perfect and complete, lacking nothing.